Monday, December 04, 2006
went over to Mama house to take her car down for ballet at GPV CC.. she still remember tat i actually was in pain ytd cos i sprained my neck n it affects my back. then she offer to help me apply deep heat. went over to her room. then yup.. i was scared at first.. it's like.. will u let anyone pull up ur shirt at the back n apply deep heat for u n rub if u're not close to the person? u wun dare n will feel weird weird right? yes.. tat's the same case for me.. i seriously feel so paiseh.. dun dare like tat. but it's really hurting me. i dun have a choice since she say i must apply it.
Thanks Mama! she's really Nice! haven had anyone treating me so well after Mummy.. moreover, had been following her ard for ballet almost everyday if i can make it.. do i really wanna be ballet teac or am i jus trying to get close to mama? i dunno.. we shall see.. she also remember tat i always have split lips. cos we're in air-con the whole day! she bought me lip balm too.. she paid for every meal i eat. now still buy things for me.. i really cannot treat as if nothing happen then. must really dance well!btw, i did 2 very wrong things today. firstly, i accidentally scolded sabrina in CCK CC grade 1 student "ben".. cos she bring water bottle without refilling it.. dotz.. i should have said why u so blur.. another thing was, i was really rough n sounds rude. i'm a very straightforward person n very chong dong. so watever i hear n phone, i'll reply wat i wanna say without thinking.. then on our way back, she was telling me all these. i remember her saying tis.. 'the parents are treating u as the "teacher" too. so u must have ur image there. cannot spoil the image. i may pass u all my classes. so must remember.' i was shock.. pass me all her classes? then i think back. jia hui from grade 7 at CCK CC asked me 'u wanna be ballet teac in future izzit?' i kept quiet n jus do gesture saying i dunno.. n since mama said tat, i really have to think twice. do i really wanna be ballet teac? will i get sick of it? i'm really scare. i dun want her to pin high hopes on me n then i might not wanna be ballet teac in future. headache qn.. i must really think hard..
`SiHui* _[temPteD_* 10:03 PM